Ali 'Imran 3:143

Walaqad kuntum tamannawna almawta min qablian talqawhu faqad raaytumoohu waantum tanthuroon

And you had certainly wished for death [i.e., martyrdom] before you encountered it, and you have [now] seen it [before you] while you were looking on.

You had longed for death before you faced it. Now, you have seen it with your eyes wide open.